离...

又发生了…
我真的很想逃离这个家…
不想再逗留在这儿…
"你最近很会外出hor?都不粘家了…"爸妈时常这样对我说…
你以为我想的？现在的我…眼见的…耳听的…面对的一切…都不禁让我选择逃避…
只要是远离这个家…那怕是区区一秒…我什么都肯做…
但我希望的…是永久…
自从当上lunarians后…开始觉得…与其说lunar7是个团…我倒觉得它更象一个家…
比我家还更加有家的味道…每次聚会都让我忘记时间…
自小都把家放在心中第一的我…渐渐地被lunar7取代…
lunar7让我明白了分享…拥有…欢笑…牺牲…情与感…
这些是我在现在的家和朋友身上学不到的…
但它只是个虚名…
我现在的家…才是我真正的家…再多么的不情愿…你已经被安排在这儿了…
无论这家发生了什么事…你都要去面对…
与他人的情形来相对…根本不值一提…你已经算是很幸运的那位了…
明耀呀明耀…
你已经到了不需要人安慰的年纪了…任何事你都要尝试去面对…不能再像这样…默不出声…
你永远不知道明天到底会发生什么…天灾…人祸…全都可能…
我时常忆起过去…过去那中学时期充满嘻嘻哈哈声的日子…
好想好想回到那时…
那些记忆片段…开始慢慢地在我的脑海里腐化…
我离那些记忆越来越遥远…但它何时接近过？
每当睡前忆起…眼眶都湿润起来…强忍着…
说服自己说…"那只是过去…只是回忆…"然后迷迷糊糊地又过了一天…
我很想搬出去…
一个人住…一直以来都是我的梦想…
不…这或者许是最近才在我心里萌出的梦想吧…
因为我讨厌孤单…
真是矛盾…
我该如何是好呢？

点点点

世界就是酱虚伪的啦...
小伙子...清醒吧...
地球并不是因你而转...
不要把自己想得这么伟大...
你只不过是地球的寄生虫罢了...

因睡而暴毙...

连续几天都猛猛地暴睡14小时...
真的不知道何时会因睡而暴毙...><
每天每天都做回同样的事...
连当天是星期几也不知...
这些时间...我发觉...天花板是白的!!
睡觉...只为了逃避...
用更浪费时间的方法去解决我无聊地浪费时间...
应该说...逃避我有机会胡思乱想吧~~
想的...都是往坏方面想...
只有在梦里我才会有相反的事...
所以我才想睡多些...
科学分析显示人的梦只能维持30秒...
为了更多的30秒...
浪费更多的小时...
><
继续暴睡吧~~

~.~

sem2 ended...

finally...

i can update my blog liao...haha

n how was 2day exam?

cham...i nid 39/40 to score A+ but the score i think i will get is around 37~38/40...

SHIT!!!

but nvm la...自己拿来的...

let me think wat i gonna do in tis sem break...

1.)get rid of my panda eye

2.)save money(which is quite impossible for me now)

3.)complete Fate Hunter

4.)make payment for next sem

hmm...so far i think tats the most important things to do...

good!! lets the holiday begin!!

life is short

break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss passionately, love truly

laugh constantly

and never stop smiling

no matter strange life is

life is not always the party we expected to be

but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful

不....完美?

世界上并没有所谓的十全十美...

所谓的完全完美是不存在的...

人...是需要有缺陷...才能突现出个人的存在...

这些...我自小就明白...

但从以前开始...我都强迫自己追求完美...

别人做不到...我一定要做到...

那无聊的好胜感...让我觉得我是不同的...

我要成为后天的完美者...

经过岁月的玩闹后...

我停顿了下来...发现到...盲目的追求完美...

让我失去了原本的我...

如今...

我站在这...

在这完美道途中的平行线上保持平衡...

我不知道接下来我该如何...

完美对我来说是奢侈的...

所以并没有人是完美...

就算不完美...我也还得活下去...

但那只是我没有任何不活下去理由罢了...

tumor on my back?

few day ago on tuesday...kc n tae come my hse find me at nite...
to spend some time...we play mahjong since they both came until midnite...
when we were playing...i felt tat my back body is pain...but i ignore tat pain tat moment...
after 12 midnite...we went down to my kitchen to "yim tae" chit chatting...
only at tis moment i try to touch my back n suddenly...i touch a "tumor"...
small part of my back swell like a 毒疮...itz pain when i touch it...
i keep wandering y n i cant recall when did i knock my back...><
suan la...i keep ignoring it...but tat nite sure is painful when im slping...
then me kc n tae chat till 2.30 only leaving my hse...n thr is a test in the morning...

until 2day...the "tumor" still thr...but itz obviously getting smaller...
i told my parent n their reaction is..."wat?! better bring u go c doctor!!"
wat a big reaction...i keep telling them itz ok...juz a extravasated blood in my body...i perhaps...
then my dad ask me to observe it 2 more days n c how...

omg...2moro my final exam start...moral will b the 1st 1...
n my fren ask me go pc fair after the exam...
still in consideration...i hate to go crowded place...
dunno la...answer will come in 2moro...i will b noe going or not 2moro...
nitez...

ar!!!

these few week of late slping really killing me...

n finally yesterday i went to slp at 10pm...sound unusual to me now...

but tats me when back 2 years ago...

slp for 12hrs...wat to say...song ar!!

haha...but dunno y after 20min of waking up...

i start to feel slpy again...

omg...2moro is the final exam for moral...

n still i hv study ntg...

wat deontology...kant's theories...utilitarianism...bla bla n bla bla...

headache...><

jiayou ba~~

for the ppl who watched "kn0w1ng"...

41020091101440304

p/s:i really go on9 check for coordination...><

happy happy....

"ok...u all can go back now..."

tats the thing ms.gaya told me after 10min class start...

we all look stun...thinking..wat the point we come uni?

the she speak again..."i told u all wat...2day come juz to check the midterm n asm mark..."

really swt...

haha...so happy...my midterm is 30/30...it wasnt a lie at all...

n asm2 9/10...great!!

total score is 48/50...

final got 50 mark...the mark i allow to miss to get A+ is 13 only...

gonna work hard on it...but...still...i havent start any study yet...><

final exam...

oh great...tat chloe of head of IT department once again..disapproved one of my summit course...

tis sem qm next sem qm also...is tat qm hard?

or juz she dun wan me take tat course?

n she advise me take FoD (fundamental of database)...but i dun wan class frm 8 to 5 on friday!!

gonna discuss wif my fren later on...c shld take FoD or juz keep taking qm...

since my uni fren keep asking me take qm...

2day is tues liao...juz 3 more day until the final exam start...

n!! i study ntg!! so far my study progress is less than 1%...

myew ar myew...study la...

u always keep telling urself u r bored...but still dun wan to study...

wat the hell r wif in u? so so stupid...

i wan motivation to study!! some1...help me...

1st exam is moral...then acc...then oom...last dm...

oya...a reminder for myself...

later gonna go take exam token!!

n also to check my legendary n msytery oom midterm mark...

wif my asm2 also...XD

是你给我希望...

还是我在你身上寻求希望呢?

pavillion n food...

walau...1st time ever drive car which not mine...

so tae n myee...if my driving scared u 2...dun blame me...

blame tats not my car...XD

spend so many 2day...but mostly is on food...

n i like the cup cake!!

so cheesy...n hor n hor...

i wan tat red ferrari!! but i prefer black colour...

watch shinjuku incident...haha...y say not nice ler?

i like it...bloody...hand break neck break...(sound like im very violent...><)

good story...overall...nice~~

chat many 2day...but dunno how to say it out here...

ask me y i dun wan find a gf?

hah! good ques...y shld i? or...whr to find?

u think find gf as easy as buying bread meh...so simple to find...

but y i dun wan find 1?

sigh...cuz im think im not a good guy...

atleast...not good enuf to hv a gf...

i hate other ppl say me im a good guy...

mayb im too 大男人主义...

i wan "her" to b my only 1 in my whole life...

i dun wan "her" to suffer...

i dun wan to let "her" think tat im not good...

so many unnessesary faiwa...

till next time...i will write more abt wat in my mind...(i think...)

nitezz

"im not good guy enuf to hv any gf"

mom...can i hv tis car?

sem 2 course selection done!!

wahahahha...

finally...finally finish the asm!!

tat asm really make me not enuf slp last nite...

slp at around 330...then the nite b4 also slp at 3...

dunno y these few days so late to slp...torturing myself...><

juz wake up frm a long nap...

body still feel tired n dizzy...

but the stupid bad dream make me dun wan to continue slp liao...

wat a weird dream...gonna getting myself up to get done my daily routine liao...^^

n hor...dunno y my post getting shorter n shorter...

isolate myself to much...

myew...u gonna change...

"change"...i dunno start telling myself to do so since how many years ago...

but still...i din c any changes make...

sigh...watelse can i do?

i dunno i dunno...><

i dun even care now...

reminder:"dun put too much hope"