Friday, November 28, 2008

rain...

rain...i hate rain...
make me cant on9...
make me cant go out yamcha...
especially mindnight rain...
my room like a freezer...
crazy cool...

btw...sometimes i like raining...
like to stand at the door...
holding my hands bhind...close my eyes...
feel the breeze...
feel refreshing...so natural...so relax...
wif a little watery smell...
everything so silent except the sound when rain hit the ground...
then looking outside...
dark but cover wif rain drop...
wif a little mystery feel...
but still...hate it...
hate it when it too silent...
seem to telling me im lonely...
yes...surrounding wif loneliness...
rain...am i hate u or like u?

Thursday, November 27, 2008

恐惧炸弹

今天终于把之前朋友送给我当生日礼物的小说...
"恐惧炸弹"给开封了...
真的有点不好意思...送给我就快两个月了...
现在才开封...
所以为表我的诚意...我用了半天时间给它"泡"完...
九把刀的小说还是一概如往的...kuso...胡搞一通...
科幻间带上幽默的色彩...
而男主角还是一样地色...连名字也...不说了...哈哈...

话说回来...这是我第一次在半天之内看完一本小说...
之前看落的数十本...我都是分两三天看的...
为什么?
因为我喜欢期待感...喜欢看到一半时系上书签...
然后当晚睡觉时预猜事后的故事...期待着它给我的惊喜...
嘛...就是喜欢这种感觉...
之前有个补习的朋友跟我说他一天可以看4到5本卫斯理...
晚上是也开着座灯看通宵...
而我就不喜欢那样...
一下子看完...就无法慢慢的去欣赏作者的艺术...
喜欢慢慢地消化所有情节...分析所有的角色...
这...就是我读书的方式...

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

result is out!!!

haha...juz now fren told me result is out...
ask me go on9 c...
so nervous...hand is shaking when i pressing the mouse...
last moment...when pressing the "view grades" link...
haha...so happy n finally relax...both score well...
BP get 83 n CE got 91(tis sub result really unexpected)...
1 requirement for scholarship is fullfill...
left 1...which is work for them....
arg!!!!worry...

study n work...

2day went back to U again...but she not thr again...
dam...dun care liao...then we go office thr ask wat we suppose to do now...
n the answer is...wait till next year d add n drop period to add other sub...
so we plan to take oom...object-oriented modelling(wat the hell is tis)...
n gonna change our timetable again...fan...later only update it...
n hor...my fren told me tat thr is 2 more slot left for the job n my phone number is hand over to them...
yipee~~now is juz nid to wait them call me to confirmation...
finally...
as a microsoft crew...i wondering wat shld i do thr...n my fren say...
"simple...mean "kuli"..."
swt...haha...watever la...work in pc fair sure is a good experience for me since im...
quite a IT freak...

Monday, November 24, 2008

25th nov 08

2day...juz when im started wanna play com...my mom come...
ask me to open "the four" for her...
omg...my only entertainment stolen...
suan la...i ma walk frm kitchen to living room few times...
climb up stair down stair few times...
finally my h.phone rang...haha...
call frm my U fren...asking me my course selection thing...
n the thing happen...i was told tat all his courses approved included QM...
which rejected in my case...feel so angry...
since we taking the same courses!!
we both keep questioning each other y y y...
then call other fren...he also rejected for QM...arg...
angry...then we decide go to U at 3pm...
bcoz experience told me tat i usually the most earlier reach thr n always nid to wait them for a long long time...
so tis time i decided to go later...but who knws...reaching thr for around 10min then i call my fren...
he juz started his car engine...arg!!!am i fated to wait ppl?
suan...then we when to c the head of IT department...but then my other fren call...
say wait for him...we both then really wait for him...
finally...can settle all thing...
BUT!! the god seem to boring n wanna play wif us...she on leave...!@#$#@!...
wat the...
no choice...we then went back n planned to come again 2moro noon...
n hor...my fren offer me to go work at pc fair wif him...under Microsoft d...
of coz i say yes...finally got something to work out...
but he nid time to ask is thr any slot left n the salary is bit lower than other job...
but who care?? he also say my tech knwlegde is quite good n ask me go lowyat work...
selling logitech hi-tech remote control...which cost around rm1400..if im not mistaken...
which stupid will use rm1400 juz to buy a remote control which hv a tiny display screen tat can control all ur tv n dvd player?
sure hard to sell 1...so i only interested in the microsoft job since it only nid jaga the redeemtion counter ...
hope he gv me a positive result cuz i really nid money now...owe ppl to much...haha...
haih...

Saturday, November 22, 2008

re-course selection...


juz knw my status for my course selection...
all accepted except QM...say Jan 09 dun hv tis course...
then wat the hell is the QM stated in the timetable?
weird...
somemore wanna ask me take CD110 which i cant find out wat the hell is tat course n also the timetable dun hv tis course...
left 2 option...MMP or OOM which stand for multimedia programming n object-oriented modelling...
quite interest on MMP but...wat i nid to do now? dunno the procedure...
sigh....htw...

Friday, November 21, 2008

小雪...

2007年11月22日星期四下午4时左右...
就在这一天...这个时候...
它离我而去...不...是有人横刀夺爱...
把它从我的身边夺去了...
已经整整一年了...
我还是放不下它...
有时睡觉时不禁回想回它...
想起来心都寒...
心...好痛...好疼...
如果当时没有遗留它在外...
如果当时没有携带它出外...
嗨...已经没有如果了...
只恨自己当时没有好好地珍惜...




雪化流之已成念
悔恨当初莫惜恋

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

...

睡了半天...
起来时浑身不对劲...
厅里不开风扇我还冷到发抖...
走路不平稳...好像我的体重一夜增加...
双手难提起...好像被千斤重的东西压着...
连我的思考都变缓慢...
昏昏颠颠地吃过午餐后...
跟着我妈妈去了药材店买点东西...
嘴巴痒痒的...随手买了冰条来吃...
吹着车里的冷气...手握着cendol味的冰条...
身体还发着抖...这时我才想到一件事...
然后对着我妈说...
"妈~我好像病了~"(好像有点迟才发现)

被我妈训了下...说"病了还买冰条...找死啊?"后...
我依然吹着冷气吃冰条边发抖...
有点像自虐...不...我并没有被虐的怪弊...请不要误会...
算啦...剩下几口的冰条往车外丢(好孩子别学)...
回了家穿着jacket后...
便去睡觉了...嗨...又一天了...

病了~~

四肢发软...
头脑变缓...
全身发寒...
双目重担...

只想说...
我病了...

Monday, November 17, 2008

course selection day

2day morning 10 wake up...preparing to go "university"... 
ya...ucsi is "honourly" become a U now... 
after tat went to U n meet up wif my frens... 
spend some time to discuss wat course to select for next sem... 
after an hr of researching...we only realize tat we c the wrong timetable... 
arg...itz 1.30pm now...n we all havent lunch yet... 
so decide go for lunch sin only continue selecting... 
n our lunch is...mcD...ya...again... 
finally around 3pm we only done comparing n selecting the course... 
n these r the time n courses we chosen... 

Mon       08.00 - 09.30 Moral  
              12.00 - 13.30 QM (lecture) 
              16.00 - 17.30 QM (lecture) 

Tues      10.00 - 12.00 Intro to Business (lecture) 

Wed       08.00 - 09.30 Moral  
              10.00 - 12.00 Discrete Maths (lecture) 
  
Thurs    13.30 - 15.00 Intro to Business (tutorial) 
              15.30 - 17.00 Discrete Maths (tutorial)

Fri          Non(yipee~~) 

we try to choose level 1 sub n most of the courses r crashed 2gether... 
but we manage to get a total 13 credit hours which still lower than the require 15 credit hours... 
so only left few sub to choose from...n result tat form the weird timetable above... 
which look so...erm...free... 
especially the monday 1...so..."un-smooth"... 
tis juz the 1st time we ever having course selection... 
so we dun really noe how to arrange our time... 
suan la...juz try to stick wif the plan for now... 
if got prob only add n drop la~~

TODAY SO HAPPY...

Y HAR? I ALSO DUNNO...

MAYB BCOZ I DRINK SOME ALCOHOL?

NOOO~~ I CANNOT MAKE IT A REASON TO CONTINUE CONSUME MORE ALCOHOL!!!

NEVER!!~~

Friday, November 14, 2008

tats wat i am...

okay...im noe u feel bored when stay wif me...
im not the person who talk a lot...
im not the person who can joke well...
im not the person who can make ppl laugh...
im not the person who always got new thing in mind...
im juz lack of communication...
i dunno wat i spoken sometimes...
i dunno who will angry bcoz wat i said...
i dunno how to interact wif ppl...
i dunno where i done wrong...
i dunno when to say tis when to say tat...
so wat? tats y i dun like to talk...
talk a bit lesser then i can prevent i accidently hurt ppl...
but ppl then say me lc...bcoz always acting cool...
wat can i do?
itz better to make u think im lc than u hate me bcoz of my stupid speech...
itz better to let ppl dun talk wif me than letting them hate me completely in heart...
bcoz all tis i only realize wat r frens make of...
they still hanging around wif me while im still the worst guy...
they make me think of it...
wat the dam hell is FRIENDSHIP...
wat the dam hell reason to stay living for...
wat the dam hell reason to continue my life...
frens is juz wat i only left now...
thnks u all...

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

一個美乃滋罐子跟兩杯咖啡

这是一个forward email的小小故事...
我觉得很有意思所以就post上来了...

這一天的哲學課,教授站上了講台
他卻不發一語,只是從講桌底下拿出了一個空的美乃滋瓶罐。
接著他拿出了一袋高爾夫球
他把整袋的高爾夫球塞進了美乃滋空罐裡
然後教授就問學生同不同意這個罐子已經是滿的了
學生們當然是同意。
接著,教授又從桌子下拿出了一杯小小的鵝卵石
他慢慢地把鵝卵石往罐子倒
邊倒邊搖,
不一會兒
所有的高爾夫球間的縫隙
竟也都填滿了鵝卵石。
這時,教授又問學生同不同意
這個美乃滋罐子已經是滿了???
學生當然是同意。
可是,話才剛說完
教授又從講桌底下拿出了一杯細沙子
教授又用同樣的方法
邊倒邊搖的把沙子填滿了鵝卵石之間的小縫隙。
教授又問了大家同不同意
這回罐子是真正的滿了???
同學說應該是全滿了,沒有空間了。
想不到同學才剛答完話
教授又從講桌下拿出了兩杯咖啡來
開始徐徐地往美乃滋罐子裡倒
直到兩杯咖啡全部到進罐子裡,一滴也不剩。
倒完咖啡後
教授笑著對同學們說:
『現在的美乃滋罐子才是真正的滿了啦。』
同學們也跟著笑了起來
就在整個教室的歡笑聲裡
教授說話了
『你們知道我今天做這個表演,是要告訴你們什麼嗎?
我是要用這個美乃滋罐來告訴你們一個道理
一個關於我們一生的哲理。
這個美乃滋空罐就是我們的人生
高爾夫球就是我們生命中的一些大事情
例如:上帝,家庭,小孩,朋友,健康,還有你的摯愛。
生命裡沒有那些小鵝卵石或沙子是沒關係的
可是要是缺了這些大事情
我們的生命根本沒有意義。
小小的鵝卵石就是我們生命中的其他的事情
例如:工作,房子,車子等等東西。
至於那細沙子就是我們生命中的小事情
那些細微不重要的瑣事。
今天我的表演....
如果是一開始就先把細沙子灌滿美乃滋罐子
那就根本沒有空間好放入高爾夫球跟鵝卵石
同樣地,如果我是先倒鵝卵石
那也是會沒有空間好給高爾夫球。
我們的生命就是這樣的
如果你儘是把寶貴的時間花在細微的瑣事上
你就不可能有時間去處裡重要的事情。
所以,我們該多花時間去注意
那些會關係到我們快樂與幸福的事情
多跟我們的小孩一起
多去陪陪我們的父母、祖父母,多些時間給家人
多注意自己的身體健康
不要擔心家事做不完
不用擔心房子還沒粉刷
不要擔心花園還沒整理
我們會找到時間來做這些事情的
先多花些心思在那些重要的大事情上吧!!
生命只有一回
我們把事情的輕重緩急跟優先順序弄清楚
生命才會有意義
教授說到這裡
有個同學舉手了....
教授,那兩杯咖啡又代表著什麼呢?
『我很高興你問這個,』教授回答道
這兩杯咖啡就是要告訴我們
不管我們的美乃滋罐看起來是裝得多滿
我們總是可以有空間跟朋友一起享受杯咖啡的!
我們的一生似乎總是這麼的忙
有這麼多的事情要處裡
似乎是一天的 24 小時總是不夠用?
如果你還是這麼想的話
想想『一個美乃滋罐子跟兩杯咖啡』的故事吧。
得空與我一起分享咖啡吧

Sunday, November 9, 2008

sunshine


刚刚把sunshine这部戏看完...
看这部戏之前...我都听每一个...
对...每一个看过这部片的人都说...
"垃圾"
"无聊"
"烂片"
"废话很多"
"不明白"
"都不知道讲什么鬼"
总之恶评如潮...无一赞美之言...
但时间很充足的我...有缘在电视上品尝品尝它的烂...

看完后第一句想说的是...
你们全部都错了...这绝对是一部绝片...
真的好看到...无言...
当全球希望放在8人身上...而任何微小但依然能致命的错误...
那种责任感...那种心理压力...
在这部片一一展现出来...
地球的命运在你的手上玩弄...
忘记了一个步骤...带来队员的死亡...
船上的生命维持器被毁...全部计划将泡汤...
自责...堕落...希望...未来...
还有因在原方案中有一点漏洞...
将一个人走向疯狂...
7年间一人在黑海漂流...
然后第二班人到来时却百般阻碍...
自称已触犯神的领域...
人类的灭亡早已决定...
最后几名年轻人牺牲小我...完成大我...
也要完成任务...
整部戏给我的感觉是刺激...感动...
真的不知道为何这样的戏会没人懂得欣赏...
还是是我不懂得欣赏?

Saturday, November 8, 2008

日子平平无奇地过... 
孤独在家的我就越思越烦... 
在这些时间里容许我思考更多关于自己... 

讨厌现在的自己... 
讨厌浪费时间的自己... 
讨厌明知浪费却依然无为的自己... 
讨厌有思无勇的自己... 
讨厌双面性格的自己... 
讨厌自欺欺人的自己... 
讨厌无能为力的自己... 
讨厌讨厌讨厌... 

讨厌但日子还是需要过... 
既然选择了...就欣然接受... 
既然决定了...就勇于面对... 
既然放弃了...就不再期待... 
期待不会发生的事...叫做妄想... 
不要妄想...却依然地去遐想... 
24小时...睡了8小时...午餐后... 
吃药再多睡4小时...12小时...半天过了... 
想靠睡眠逃避现实... 
逃避有机会胡思乱想的我... 
但醒来后却发觉世界依然在转动... 
挂着的时钟依然滴答滴答地转动... 
唯一不变的...是我... 
双眼凝视着墙上的白幕... 
放映着我过去的过错... 
我嘲笑着自己... 
一切的一切...无法回头...
连自己都不喜欢的人...
如何去喜欢别人...

Sunday, November 2, 2008

2day so free...until now...
then i count total how many phrases i said 2day??
guess what...less than 10...walau e...
i dunno wat my emotion now...not sad not happy...
haih...
some1...talk to me...
feel like so empty...
这几天来都在家里...像一个囚犯般...
上来写blog...也不知该写什么好...
好没灵感...

今天去朋友家"打B炉"...
跟他们坐在一起...已经没有以前的感觉了...
总觉得很难和他们搭上话...我只有听的份儿...
心情真不好...吧...
可能只是没话说...才会有这种感觉...
好无聊啊~~
真的不知接下来的日子该怎么过...
希望这些日子里我知道如何结束它...

Saturday, November 1, 2008

ENUF IS ENUF!!!